The Difference For Me Between Someone I Love And Someone I Appreciate

There are people I love and appreciate. People I love are the people I'm closest to. They are family, very close friends, church family, my group home family from way back, my roommate, my best friends I can tell anything to, and a select few coworkers. The difference I see between this and people I appreciate is that there are very few people I can say "I love you" to or even fewer that I can say "I freaking love you" to and feel like I haven't made them feel uncomfortable. The path of love is one that my most respected, best-liked, heroic, closest feel. The rest that are acquaintances or close friends, I feel like appreciate is a much better term. I appreciate people to the people that they become close friends or people that I can talk to often. Appreciate means that you like them and you want to spend time with them, but you don't love them. To me, love is a word that even as affectionate as I am, I use somewhat sparingly because love is an exceptionally high-esteem word. You can appreciate someone and love them at the same time, however, when I appreciate people and I don't love them, it doesn't mean any less. I love people when I know them so well that it hurts to where I can't keep in contact with them in some form. When I appreciate people, it feels like I can go time to time without seeing them or ignoring their Facebook conversations and the next time I see them, be cordial. Life is too short to make people feel uncomfortable but it is also too short to be hostile. I love very few people, only the closest, and I appreciate most everyone I come in contact with. And that's what makes me me.

What I Want To See

I am a visionary. I view people and it makes me cringe because sometimes people don't always make the best decisions or have the best leadership skills when they are thought of as leaders. But then I realize that no one is perfect by any stretch of the imagination and as many people are offended by the things I do as they are by the rash decisions I make and don't always follow through on changing if they are bad. So what I want to see for myself is to become a better quick decision-maker and less impulsive. It might take some time because of my autism, ADHD, and depression, but I've worked on it for quite some time to make it better and I need to structure my life even more around a great situation-based infrastructure. What I want to see for others is to try to have acceptance more. Many people I know are doing great. Unfortunately, there are some who need to work on their biases and at the very least accept people for who they are on basic terms. I love people and I want to work on making the world a better place. It is time that more people joined me in that venture in creating positive social change.